SO close...

The fact that the year is so close to ending is just a tease.  My mental stability in school is on the edge.  I just studied for an exam and completely feel like I failed miserably on it.  It was horribly written and just confusing to take and just set up to fail you... so I feel like I want to punch that class in the face.  Just wanted to vent about that. whew! two new dislikes in my life... market strategy and market research! blah! don't think I'm going to pursue a career in either!

I am now entering the 2nd half of conference and it's exciting because it means that we are entering the last of everything.  Last time to go here, play this person, and it is just exciting.  I have roughly 7 more mandatory workouts and less than a month till my senior game. So the end is in sight! but my depressing failures of tests seem to keep me grounded.  

Lloyd's birthday is almost here and I can't wait to give him his present.  I think he might have an idea of what it is and just making him wait for it is making me happy. haha. I had to hide it in my closet when he came over and he nearly tore down my closet doors to get to it.. awesome. But hopefully there is still an element of surprise for my soon to be 22 year old man. 

Another exciting thing is that I get a quick visit to Air force.  This is one of the last times that I will be able to play in my home town. I made a request for my mom's pumpkin bread for my visit as well!   Our team is also dressing up for Halloween on this trip.  Jade and I have decided to be brides just to make our coach Jeff mad.  He doesn't really like our boyfriends or any relationships so what better than to be BRIDES to make him just even more happy! MUAHAHA

Well I'm off to listen to some more market research.... ew

Quick Updates!

The weekend seemed to fly by!! We had some amazing games against Utah and BYU and we won! It was a great feeling and I hope we keep carrying all that momentum into our next games.  Things seem to be going crazy in the volleyball world and I know that anything can happen so just want to make sure they keep going our way. 

I'm sitting in the Anderson computer lab at UNM before class working on my graduation application. Crazy how that is actually a possibility of what I need to do.  I can't wait to have my degree under my belt and actually see what comes next in life. The possibilities are endless! 

I still am looking forward to the holiday season and can't wait to see my family.  I get a nice break in Air Force this weekend but that is just a tease. I can wave at my home that is 10 minutes away. :-( But that's okay! It is a televised game so hopefully we just come out with a bang!

Well I'm full of random thoughts this morning but that's oookay! I have a hot lunch date with the man I love and I can't wait to see him! Three days is far too long haha jk... but seriously!

love love love!




celebration from this weekend.... really crawling on the floor... whatever works! haha



Just some relaxing music in the morning! love Taylor swift

Coffee in the Morning

Last night was certainly a good night and a good turn around for UNM volleyball.  I'm happy to say we beat BYU and with more than enough people on our team playing well.  It's so much fun to see all the girls enjoying themselves and really have a new drive and hop in their steps.  The difference is amazing! Boy do I love them. 
Well I'm up after sleeping in which of lately is anything past 8 oclock and I don't have school so I am enjoying some homemade cup of coffee.  I wish I could just stay cuddled up in my bed but we still do have practice and another match this Saturday against Utah.  So the laying around must wait until Christmas break. 

This weekend Lloyd is going to be off hunting and is going to be gone the WHOLE weekend. haha Just kidding, I leave him when I go on trips all the time for volleyball, I just happen to make more of a deal about all of his trips! hehe... oh the joys of being a girl! But that's okay I can work on some minor birthday planning and catch up on homework perhaps... but due to my lack of motivation in the homework area these days that seems to be an unwanted option.  One of the things on my to do list is definitely cleaning my room.  Clothes, clothes, and clothes. That would definitely sum up my bedroom floor! That hasn't changed since I was a little girl.  It seems that whenever I get stressed out the clothes from my closet come out and make their homes on my floor.  So a minor pick up is in need. 

My roomate Allison's boyfriend is coming into town and it's going to be some fun times.  We are trying to plan a triple date for all of us to go out on and just get a night off from our crazy weeks.  So they will be around the house all cute for a week. haha! I offered to do a photo secession with them but they are not quite engaged so I will just have to wait to take any pictures of in love couples.  If anyone out there wants some cute pictures taken let me know! I would more than LOVE to take them!!

Well off to sip more coffee and enjoy more of my day! Soaking in the minutes of this quiet morning!

Hope

It's amazing what alittle Hope can do for an attitude.  I've sort of been moping around and not really feeling purpose within all that I have been working towards.  Like why school, why volleyball, WHYYYYY! haha

But today I got alittle glimmer of hope and understanding and it made me realize that life is okay.  I have been playing volleyball since I was eight. Eight years old! I have been playing now more years than I have not been playing and when I see the end of the road I just don't know what to do with myself. My senior season has not been a complete perfect season but today our coach gave us some hope and it gave me some perspective. I am feeling better about things for today and I have to keep realizing that God is the purpose of my life and that no matter what I am doing that He has a plan and that I need to have patience.  I keep wanting to look into the future and keep saying if I only get to this one point then I will be okay, and I forget to enjoy the moments that I am in.  So that's alittle life lesson I have been wanting to keep up on. 

Well my day was pretty productive.  I have so many external analysis, business plans, and marketing plans that are due soon that I think I might turn into a business plan myself.  But I am doing good.  I have to present on a current event soon and have to make a nice speech so I need to work on that.  I am keeping up with school so I am happy. 

I got to go on alittle (pizza and my new favorite dessert, Canoli's,) date with my wonderful man Lloyd.  We ate and watched the sports center at the restaurant and then he even got to try the new Punk'in beer which he said tasted like pumpkin pie.  Alittle questionable to me.... but still gets me excited that it is fall.  I have been starting to wear my fall outfits and I'm so excited to bundle up in sweaters and warm things! I love fall! Well I'm off to go lay around in my sweats and battle off senioritis! We will see how that goes....



Lloyd and I enjoying some of the Balloon Fiesta!



Back to Albuquerque

Well it was an up and down weekend.  I don't really feel like talking about volleyball anymore because honestly I have talked so much about it that I don't even like talking about it right now.  So I will focus on the random things that did happen.  Well I got to see my family and friends up in Fort Collins and I was so excited.  Got to spend a morning with my BFF of all time Amy Whitlow, and she even introduced me to the new love of soy lattes.  They are very healthy tasting, but I still might get my vanilla lattes still. mmmm! I do love coffee.  We got to update eachother on our lives and find out that we are still exactly the same in every way and realize that no matter how far away or how long we don't talk for we can pick up right where we left off every time. 

My family spent the night after the game at my hotel for alittle while and we got to talking about the holiday season and what Thanksgiving and Christmas will hold.  Potentially this will be the first Meeter/Martin(my family) and Merino (Boyfriend family) Thanksgiving.  I have my Senior game the day after thanksgiving so everyone will be traveling down to see me play and spend some good quality time together.  With a baby soon to be on the way by Lloyd's sister it might be alittle hectic once that little one comes into the world, but I can't wait.  So we will see how Thanksgiving plays out, but I am sure that it will be memorable.  Also my sister and Alex are going to come down a few days early and get to spend some time with me. We will probably have our own little holiday celebration which I am in desperate need of. I need some fun in my life.

Lloyds birthday/Halloween are coming right around the corner, but time can't seem to go fast enough.  It will be fun to celebrate his big 22nd birthday.  Weird. I'm starting to feel old already. :-) His current want is anything that has to do with Bikes. Bike tools, bike parts, bike candy j/k... etc.  But I think I have something up my sleeve that he will definitely enjoy. I love him dearly even though today I am not too happy with him.  Last night he decided to go hiking with some guys IN THE DARK! Needless to say I was very worried and not happy that instead of a nice 3 hour hike that it shouldve took, it took 6 hours and I didn't even get to see him after my trip.  I'm still grumpy about it and am probably being immature about still being upset, but I am okay with that. He is going to be going on a hunting trip this weekend and so I just want some time with him cause I know our schedules are always so busy, or at least mine always messes things up. 

Well I am trying to enjoy my last few weeks of volleyball and just get the most out of it.  I want to be remembered as something special and that I did things right so we will see.  I am searching to find a greater purpose beyond just training for volleyball 24/7 and it is taking it's toll on me especially when we lose.  I'm getting a glimpse of how a professional athlete would feel.  All your life is based upon these wins and losses and I don't know how they deal with it past a certain point.  Wouldn't you need God? Well I want to find that purpose and do something that I wouldn't have even dreamed of.  I'm hoping that these next few weeks will bring that into light.  I trust God immensely, but I also want to be content in my current situation. 

Well I'm off to go deal with school, volleyball, and life. Got my viente Starbucks in hand and I am ready to go.

love  love  love

Update on Life

Well what a year it has been already.  I have 6 weeks left of my senior volleyball season, Roughly 8 more weeks of school, and Christmas can't seem to come fast enough.  The whole vibe of this year has been very different.  Having to keep up with the leadership aspect of volleyball has been extremely stressful and I am struggling with keeping my confidence and my motivation going.  I just can't seem to do anything right and I feel like I am trying so hard, but it is not going in the direction people want.  I've been trying to give my team the leadership they want yet still give the leadership my coaches want.  It is quite the learning experience and without God I do not think that I would have the power to continue.  I hope our season comes to some high points and that we will excel and we won't be a disappointment to everyone... which is what I am feeling now. Who knows what will happen but I will start praying for some miracles!

We go up to Wyoming and CSU and at CSU I have yet to come out of the lockeroom up there without being in tears when I get to meet my family.  I want to win and run into the crowd to see my family haha! :-) But we will see! 

Well I am looking forward to the Holiday seasons and the joy that will bring.  I am blessed in life and need to keep having a positive attitude. I sometimes get caught up in a negative attitude with all the negative vibes around me.  I need joy, and to spread that joy. 

Well until next time.... <3