watching...

Do you ever feel like you are just stuck in one phase of your life and watching others get to experience the joys of the next phases of their lives?  I feel that way often, and lately I feel like I am just stuck watching and not being able to truly grasp the stage of life I'm in.   I need God to really guide my heart sometimes in being content where I am at and really seeing all the blessings I have in my life.   I find myself wishing to be at a different stage and I know that is not the best thing to do by wishing my life away. I feel like I just want to keep my heart busy so I won't feel disappointed.  It's a hard concept to fully grasp on my own and I felt like pouring these words out.

 I need to pray these things and make God the focus more than me.  Sometimes I want to be superwoman and just do it all on my own,  but lately God is showing me that alone I can't be happy and people can never fully satisfy love, it's God that fills the aches of humans and God who fills the wishes.  I just "wish" I could take that advice more often than I do...

Maybe it's the end of an intense stage in my life as far as volleyball or being in a low key setting right now, but I find myself a little sad at night and pondering what I should do to make things light up again for me.  It seems a new adventure is in need for my life... or maybe I need to embrace the stillness of life and maybe, just maybe, I'll hear the whisper of a powerful God trying to speak to me.

Photo I took in Albuquerque, NM  finding God's stillness